Wall of text ahead, read if you care.

I'm wondering why I'm still awake at this time. The cramping in my hand slowly subsiding as i take a break from slaving over a sketchpad. Even though, this keyboard doesn't loosen my fingers as I had planned. I suppose that was funny to think in the first place.

I often wonder why I still post artwork here, actually. I mean, it's something I absolutely love to do - but unless you're in the community's face everyday of your exsistance, you really have no recognition. Hmm, I'm aware my gallery goes lacking and I leave several things ... for lack of a better term "unfinished". But, it doesn't bother me. I love the comments and favorites I receive from old faithfuls. And as much as I try to pretend just a "favorite" doesn't bother me, I also like to hear feedback, even if the comment is "Oh, I really like it!". Sometimes it's a little discouraging, you know? Because anyone with a mouse can click the +fave button and move on with their day. I think it takes someone who cares enough to leave an encouraging comment. But perhaps I ask too much. Or I'm too needy. =\ That or I went around spamming too many comments tonight and started thinking about it. WHO KNOWS.

Anyway, I'm back into the swing of things - somewhat. I'm taking some breaks in my daily life to leave some "me time". Frankly, it's refreshing, and I find myself enjoying living a lot more than usual. Regardless of how I feel at the time. But I'm happy I'm breathing life back into old characters that had been shelved for years. At least since my Sophomore year of High School. And that's been a long time, mind you! It feels good to draw them ... they feel like old friends I've finally reunited with ( Wow, wish I could pull that off in real life ... ). But I feel so comfortable with them, so at home again. And taking my artwork back to a Gothic or Victorian feel makes me so ... excited to pick up my pencil and put it to the paper. Maybe I can finally pick up where I left off and improve and grow. I think I've been missing that ability for so many years ...

Something about listening to old, almost long-forgotten Gothic Rock bands puts me into this mood. And I smile. So peaceful.

Alright, I suppose I should finish rambling. I had originally started this journal just to say "hi". But I guess I went a little beyond a simple greeting.

tl;dr - Hi. I'm Enjeru, I don't sleep and draw instead.